You are to stay with your dear Madam Mina. We shall go to make our search, i_ can call it so, for it is not search but knowing, and we seek confirmatio_nly. But do you stay and take care of her today. This is your best and mos_oliest office. This day nothing can find him here.
Let me tell you that so you will know what we four know already, for I hav_ell them. He, our enemy, have gone away. He have gone back to his Castle i_ransylvania. I know it so well, as if a great hand of fire wrote it on th_all. He have prepare for this in some way, and that last earth box was read_o ship somewheres. For this he took the money. For this he hurry at the last, lest we catch him before the sun go down. It was his last hope, save that h_ight hide in the tomb that he think poor Miss Lucy, being as he thought lik_im, keep open to him. But there was not of time. When that fail he mak_traight for his last resource, his last earthwork I might say did I wis_ouble entente. He is clever, oh so clever! He know that his game here wa_inish. And so he decide he go back home. He find ship going by the route h_ame, and he go in it.
We go off now to find what ship, and whither bound. When we have discove_hat, we come back and tell you all. Then we will comfort you and poor Mada_ina with new hope. For it will be hope when you think it over, that all i_ot lost. This very creature that we pursue, he take hundreds of years to ge_o far as London. And yet in one day, when we know of the disposal of him w_rive him out. He is finite, though he is powerful to do much harm and suffer_ot as we do. But we are strong, each in our purpose, and we are all mor_trong together. Take heart afresh, dear husband of Madam Mina. This battle i_ut begun and in the end we shall win. So sure as that God sits on high t_atch over His children. Therefore be of much comfort till we return.
JONATHAN HARKER'S JOURNAL
4 October.—When I read to Mina, Van Helsing's message in the phonograph, th_oor girl brightened up considerably. Already the certainty that the Count i_ut of the country has given her comfort. And comfort is strength to her. Fo_y own part, now that his horrible danger is not face to face with us, i_eems almost impossible to believe in it. Even my own terrible experiences i_astle Dracula seem like a long forgotten dream. Here in the crisp autumn ai_n the bright sunlight.
Alas! How can I disbelieve! In the midst of my thought my eye fell on the re_car on my poor darling's white forehead. Whilst that lasts, there can be n_isbelief. Mina and I fear to be idle, so we have been over all the diarie_gain and again. Somehow, although the reality seem greater each time, th_ain and the fear seem less. There is something of a guiding purpose manifes_hroughout, which is comforting. Mina says that perhaps we are the instrument_f ultimate good. It may be! I shall try to think as she does. We have neve_poken to each other yet of the future. It is better to wait till we see th_rofessor and the others after their investigations.
The day is running by more quickly than I ever thought a day could run for m_gain. It is now three o'clock.
MINA HARKER'S JOURNAL
5 October, 5 p. m.—Our meeting for report. Present: Professor Van Helsing, Lord Godalming, Dr. Seward, Mr. Quincey Morris, Jonathan Harker, Mina Harker.
Dr. Van Helsing described what steps were taken during the day to discover o_hat boat and whither bound Count Dracula made his escape.
"As I knew that he wanted to get back to Transylvania, I felt sure that h_ust go by the Danube mouth, or by somewhere in the Black Sea, since by tha_ay he come. It was a dreary blank that was before us. Omme Ignotum pr_agnifico. And so with heavy hearts we start to find what ships leave for th_lack Sea last night. He was in sailing ship, since Madam Mina tell of sail_eing set. These not so important as to go in your list of the shipping in th_imes, and so we go, by suggestion of Lord Godalming, to your Lloyd's, wher_re note of all ships that sail, however so small. There we find that only on_lack Sea bound ship go out with the tide. She is the Czarina Catherine, an_he sail from Doolittle's Wharf for Varna, and thence to other ports and u_he Danube. `So!' said I, `this is the ship whereon is the Count.' So off w_o to Doolittle's Wharf, and there we find a man in an office. From him w_nquire of the goings of the Czarina Catherine. He swear much, and he red fac_nd loud of voice, but he good fellow all the same. And when Quincey give hi_omething from his pocket which crackle as he roll it up, and put it in a s_mall bag which he have hid deep in his clothing, he still better fellow an_umble servant to us. He come with us, and ask many men who are rough and hot.
These be better fellows too when they have been no more thirsty. They say muc_f blood and bloom, and of others which I comprehend not, though I guess wha_hey mean. But nevertheless they tell us all things which we want to know.
"They make known to us among them, how last afternoon at about five o'cloc_omes a man so hurry. A tall man, thin and pale, with high nose and teeth s_hite, and eyes that seem to be burning. That he be all in black, except tha_e have a hat of straw which suit not him or the time. That he scatter hi_oney in making quick inquiry as to what ship sails for the Black Sea and fo_here. Some took him to the office and then to the ship, where he will not g_board but halt at shore end of gangplank, and ask that the captain come t_im. The captain come, when told that he will be pay well, and though he swea_uch at the first he agree to term. Then the thin man go and some one tell hi_here horse and cart can be hired. He go there and soon he come again, himsel_riving cart on which a great box. This he himself lift down, though it tak_everal to put it on truck for the ship. He give much talk to captain as t_ow and where his box is to be place. But the captain like it not and swear a_im in many tongues, and tell him that if he like he can come and see where i_hall be. But he say `no,' that he come not yet, for that he have much to do.
Whereupon the captain tell him that he had better be quick, with blood, fo_hat his ship will leave the place, of blood, before the turn of the tide, with blood. Then the thin man smile and say that of course he must go when h_hink fit, but he will be surprise if he go quite so soon. The captain swea_gain, polyglot, and the thin man make him bow, and thank him, and say that h_ill so far intrude on his kindness as to come aboard before the sailing.
Final the captain, more red than ever, and in more tongues, tell him that h_oesn't want no Frenchmen, with bloom upon them and also with blood, in hi_hip, with blood on her also. And so, after asking where he might purchas_hip forms, he departed.
"No one knew where he went `or bloomin' well cared' as they said, for they ha_omething else to think of, well with blood again. For it soon became apparen_o all that the Czarina Catherine would not sail as was expected. A thin mis_egan to creep up from the river, and it grew, and grew. Till soon a dense fo_nveloped the ship and all around her. The captain swore polyglot, ver_olyglot, polyglot with bloom and blood, but he could do nothing. The wate_ose and rose, and he began to fear that he would lose the tide altogether. H_as in no friendly mood, when just at full tide, the thin man came up th_angplank again and asked to see where his box had been stowed. Then th_aptain replied that he wished that he and his box, old and with much bloo_nd blood, were in hell. But the thin man did not be offend, and went dow_ith the mate and saw where it was place, and came up and stood awhile on dec_n fog. He must have come off by himself, for none notice him. Indeed the_hought not of him, for soon the fog begin to melt away, and all was clea_gain. My friends of the thirst and the language that was of bloom and bloo_aughed, as they told how the captain's swears exceeded even his usua_olyglot, and was more than ever full of picturesque, when on questionin_ther mariners who were on movement up and down the river that hour, he foun_hat few of them had seen any of fog at all, except where it lay round th_harf. However, the ship went out on the ebb tide, and was doubtless b_orning far down the river mouth. She was then, when they told us, well out t_ea.
"And so, my dear Madam Mina, it is that we have to rest for a time, for ou_nemy is on the sea, with the fog at his command, on his way to the Danub_outh. To sail a ship takes time, go she never so quick. And when we start t_o on land more quick, and we meet him there. Our best hope is to come on hi_hen in the box between sunrise and sunset. For then he can make no struggle, and we may deal with him as we should. There are days for us, in which we ca_ake ready our plan. We know all about where he go. For we have seen the owne_f the ship, who have shown us invoices and all papers that can be. The box w_eek is to be landed in Varna, and to be given to an agent, one Ristics wh_ill there present his credentials. And so our merchant friend will have don_is part. When he ask if there be any wrong, for that so, he can telegraph an_ave inquiry made at Varna, we say `no,' for what is to be done is not fo_olice or of the customs. It must be done by us alone and in our own way."
When Dr. Van Helsing had done speaking, I asked him if he were certain tha_he Count had remained on board the ship. He replied, "We have the best proo_f that, your own evidence, when in the hypnotic trance this morning."
I asked him again if it were really necessary that they should pursue th_ount, for oh! I dread Jonathan leaving me, and I know that he would surely g_f the others went. He answered in growing passion, at first quietly. As h_ent on, however, he grew more angry and more forceful, till in the end w_ould not but see wherein was at least some of that personal dominance whic_ade him so long a master amongst men.
"Yes, it is necessary, necessary, necessary! For your sake in the first, an_hen for the sake of humanity. This monster has done much harm already, in th_arrow scope where he find himself, and in the short time when as yet he wa_nly as a body groping his so small measure in darkness and not knowing. Al_his have I told these others. You, my dear Madam Mina, will learn it in th_honograph of my friend John, or in that of your husband. I have told them ho_he measure of leaving his own barren land, barren of peoples,and coming to _ew land where life of man teems till they are like the multitude of standin_orn, was the work of centuries. Were another of the Undead, like him, to tr_o do what he has done, perhaps not all the centuries of the world that hav_een, or that will be, could aid him. With this one, all the forces of natur_hat are occult and deep and strong must have worked together in som_onderous way. The very place, where he have been alive, Undead for all thes_enturies, is full of strangeness of the geologic and chemical world. Ther_re deep caverns and fissures that reach none know whither. There have bee_olcanoes, some of whose openings still send out waters of strange properties, and gases that kill or make to vivify. Doubtless, there is something magneti_r electric in some of these combinations of occult forces which work fo_hysical life in strange way, and in himself were from the first some grea_ualities. In a hard and warlike time he was celebrate that he have more iro_erve, more subtle brain, more braver heart, than any man. In him some vita_rinciple have in strange way found their utmost. And as his body keep stron_nd grow and thrive, so his brain grow too. All this without that diabolic ai_hich is surely to him. For it have to yield to the powers that come from, an_re, symbolic of good. And now this is what he is to us. He have infect you, oh forgive me, my dear, that I must say such, but it is for good of you that _peak. He infect you in such wise, that even if he do no more, you have onl_o live, to live in your own old, sweet way, and so in time, death, which i_f man's common lot and with God's sanction, shall make you like to him. Thi_ust not be! We have sworn together that it must not. Thus are we ministers o_od's own wish. That the world, and men for whom His Son die, will not b_iven over to monsters, whose very existence would defame Him. He have allowe_s to redeem one soul already, and we go out as the old knights of the Cros_o redeem more. Like them we shall travel towards the sunrise. And like them, if we fall, we fall in good cause."
He paused and I said, "But will not the Count take his rebuff wisely? Since h_as been driven from England, will he not avoid it, as a tiger does th_illage from which he has been hunted?"
"Aha!" he said, "your simile of the tiger good, for me, and I shall adopt him.
Your maneater, as they of India call the tiger who has once tasted blood o_he human, care no more for the other prey, but prowl unceasing till he ge_im. This that we hunt from our village is a tiger, too, a maneater, and h_ever cease to prowl. Nay, in himself he is not one to retire and stay afar.
In his life, his living life, he go over the Turkey frontier and attack hi_nemy on his own ground. He be beaten back, but did he stay? No! He com_gain, and again, and again. Look at his persistence and endurance. With th_hild-brain that was to him he have long since conceive the idea of coming t_ great city. What does he do? He find out the place of all the world most o_romise for him. Then he deliberately set himself down to prepare for th_ask. He find in patience just how is his strength, and what are his powers.
He study new tongues. He learn new social life, new environment of old ways, the politics, the law, the finance, the science, the habit of a new land and _ew people who have come to be since he was. His glimpse that he have had, whet his appetite only and enkeen his desire. Nay, it help him to grow as t_is brain. For it all prove to him how right he was at the first in hi_urmises. He have done this alone, all alone! From a ruin tomb in a forgotte_and. What more may he not do when the greater world of thought is open t_im. He that can smile at death, as we know him. Who can flourish in the mids_f diseases that kill off whole peoples. Oh! If such an one was to come fro_od, and not the Devil, what a force for good might he not be in this ol_orld of ours. But we are pledged to set the world free. Our toil must be i_ilence, and our efforts all in secret. For in this enlightened age, when me_elieve not even what they see, the doubting of wise men would be his greates_trength. It would be at once his sheath and his armor, and his weapons t_estroy us, his enemies, who are willing to peril even our own souls for th_afety of one we love. For the good of mankind, and for the honor and glory o_od."
After a general discussion it was determined that for tonight nothing b_efinitely settled. That we should all sleep on the facts, and try to thin_ut the proper conclusions. Tomorrow, at breakfast, we are to meet again, an_fter making our conclusions known to one another, we shall decide on som_efinite cause of action …
I feel a wonderful peace and rest tonight. It is as if some haunting presenc_ere removed from me. Perhaps …
My surmise was not finished, could not be, for I caught sight in the mirror o_he red mark upon my forehead, and I knew that I was still unclean.
DR. SEWARD'S DIARY
5 October.—We all arose early, and I think that sleep did much for each an_ll of us. When we met at early breakfast there was more general cheerfulnes_han any of us had ever expected to experience again.
It is really wonderful how much resilience there is in human nature. Let an_bstructing cause, no matter what, be removed in any way, even by death, an_e fly back to first principles of hope and enjoyment. More than once as w_at around the table, my eyes opened in wonder whether the whole of the pas_ays had not been a dream. It was only when I caught sight of the red blotc_n Mrs. Harker's forehead that I was brought back to reality. Even now, when _m gravely revolving the matter, it is almost impossible to realize that th_ause of all our trouble is still existent. Even Mrs. Harker seems to los_ight of her trouble for whole spells. It is only now and again, whe_omething recalls it to her mind, that she thinks of her terrible scar. We ar_o meet here in my study in half an hour and decide on our course of action. _ee only one immediate difficulty, I know it by instinct rather than reason.
We shall all have to speak frankly. And yet I fear that in some mysterious wa_oor Mrs. Harker's tongue is tied. I know that she forms conclusions of he_wn, and from all that has been I can guess how brilliant and how true the_ust be. But she will not, or cannot, give them utterance. I have mentione_his to Van Helsing, and he and I are to talk it over when we are alone. _uppose it is some of that horrid poison which has got into her vein_eginning to work. The Count had his own purposes when he gave her what Va_elsing called "the Vampire's baptism of blood." Well, there may be a poiso_hat distills itself out of good things. In an age when the existence o_tomaines is a mystery we should not wonder at anything! One thing I know, that if my instinct be true regarding poor Mrs. Harker's silences, then ther_s a terrible difficulty, an unknown danger, in the work before us. The sam_ower that compels her silence may compel her speech. I dare not thin_urther, for so I should in my thoughts dishonor a noble woman!
Later.—When the Professor came in, we talked over the state of things. I coul_ee that he had something on his mind, which he wanted to say, but felt som_esitancy about broaching the subject. After beating about the bush a little, he said,"Friend John, there is something that you and I must talk of alone, just at the first at any rate. Later, we may have to take the others into ou_onfidence."
Then he stopped, so I waited. He went on, "Madam Mina, our poor, dear Mada_ina is changing."
A cold shiver ran through me to find my worst fears thus endorsed. Van Helsin_ontinued.
"With the sad experience of Miss Lucy, we must this time be warned befor_hings go too far. Our task is now in reality more difficult than ever, an_his new trouble makes every hour of the direst importance. I can see th_haracteristics of the vampire coming in her face. It is now but very, ver_light. But it is to be seen if we have eyes to notice without prejudge. He_eeth are sharper, and at times her eyes are more hard. But these are not all, there is to her the silence now often, as so it was with Miss Lucy. She di_ot speak, even when she wrote that which she wished to be known later. Now m_ear is this. If it be that she can, by our hypnotic trance, tell what th_ount see and hear, is it not more true that he who have hypnotize her first, and who have drink of her very blood and make her drink of his, should if h_ill, compel her mind to disclose to him that which she know?"
I nodded acquiescence. He went on, "Then, what we must do is to prevent this.
We must keep her ignorant of our intent, and so she cannot tell what she kno_ot. This is a painful task! Oh, so painful that it heartbreak me to think o_t, but it must be. When today we meet, I must tell her that for reason whic_e will not to speak she must not more be of our council, but be simpl_uarded by us."
He wiped his forehead, which had broken out in profuse perspiration at th_hought of the pain which he might have to inflict upon the poor soul alread_o tortured. I knew that it would be some sort of comfort to him if I told hi_hat I also had come to the same conclusion. For at any rate it would tak_way the pain of doubt. I told him, and the effect was as I expected.
It is now close to the time of our general gathering. Van Helsing has gon_way to prepare for the meeting, and his painful part of it. I really believ_is purpose is to be able to pray alone.
Later.—At the very outset of our meeting a great personal relief wa_xperienced by both Van Helsing and myself. Mrs. Harker had sent a message b_er husband to say that she would not join us at present, as she thought i_etter that we should be free to discuss our movements without her presence t_mbarrass us. The Professor and I looked at each other for an instant, an_omehow we both seemed relieved. For my own part, I thought that if Mrs.
Harker realized the danger herself, it was much pain as well as much dange_verted. Under the circumstances we agreed, by a questioning look and answer, with finger on lip, to preserve silence in our suspicions, until we shoul_ave been able to confer alone again. We went at once into our Plan o_ampaign.
Van Helsing roughly put the facts before us first,"The Czarina Catherine lef_he Thames yesterday morning. It will take her at the quickest speed she ha_ver made at least three weeks to reach Varna. But we can travel overland t_he same place in three days. Now, if we allow for two days less for th_hip's voyage, owing to such weather influences as we know that the Count ca_ring to bear, and if we allow a whole day and night for any delays which ma_ccur to us, then we have a margin of nearly two weeks.
"Thus, in order to be quite safe, we must leave here on 17th at latest. The_e shall at any rate be in Varna a day before the ship arrives, and able t_ake such preparations as may be necessary. Of course we shall all go armed, armed against evil things, spiritual as well as physical."
Here Quincey Morris added,"I understand that the Count comes from a wol_ountry, and it may be that he shall get there before us. I propose that w_dd Winchesters to our armament. I have a kind of belief in a Winchester whe_here is any trouble of that sort around. Do you remember, Art, when we ha_he pack after us at Tobolsk? What wouldn't we have given then for a repeate_piece!"
"Good!" said Van Helsing, "Winchesters it shall be. Quincey's head is level a_imes, but most so when there is to hunt, metaphor be more dishonor to scienc_han wolves be of danger to man. In the meantime we can do nothing here. An_s I think that Varna is not familiar to any of us, why not go there mor_oon? It is as long to wait here as there. Tonight and tomorrow we can ge_eady, and then if all be well, we four can set out on our journey."
"We four?" said Harker interrogatively, looking from one to another of us.
"Of course!" answered the Professor quickly. "You must remain to take care o_our so sweet wife!"
Harker was silent for awhile and then said in a hollow voice, "Let us talk o_hat part of it in the morning. I want to consult with Mina."
I thought that now was the time for Van Helsing to warn him not to disclos_ur plan to her, but he took no notice. I looked at him significantly an_oughed. For answer he put his finger to his lips and turned away.
JONATHAN HARKER'S JOURNAL
October, afternoon.—For some time after our meeting this morning I could no_hink. The new phases of things leave my mind in a state of wonder whic_llows no room for active thought. Mina's determination not to take any par_n the discussion set me thinking. And as I could not argue the matter wit_er, I could only guess. I am as far as ever from a solution now. The way th_thers received it, too puzzled me. The last time we talked of the subject w_greed that there was to be no more concealment of anything amongst us. Min_s sleeping now, calmly and sweetly like a little child. Her lips are curve_nd her face beams with happiness. Thank God, there are such moments still fo_er.
Later.—How strange it all is. I sat watching Mina's happy sleep, and I came a_ear to being happy myself as I suppose I shall ever be. As the evening dre_n, and the earth took its shadows from the sun sinking lower, the silence o_he room grew more and more solemn to me.
All at once Mina opened her eyes, and looking at me tenderly said, "Jonathan, I want you to promise me something on your word of honor. A promise made t_e, but made holily in God's hearing, and not to be broken though I should g_own on my knees and implore you with bitter tears. Quick, you must make it t_e at once."
"Mina," I said, "a promise like that, I cannot make at once. I may have n_ight to make it."
"But, dear one," she said, with such spiritual intensity that her eyes wer_ike pole stars, "it is I who wish it. And it is not for myself. You can as_r. Van Helsing if I am not right. If he disagrees you may do as you will.
Nay, more if you all agree, later you are absolved from the promise."
"I promise!" I said, and for a moment she looked supremely happy. Though to m_ll happiness for her was denied by the red scar on her forehead.
She said, "Promise me that you will not tell me anything of the plans forme_or the campaign against the Count. Not by word, or inference, or implication, not at any time whilst this remains to me!" And she solemnly pointed to th_car. I saw that she was in earnest, and said solemnly, "I promise!" and as _aid it I felt that from that instant a door had been shut between us.
Later, midnight.—Mina has been bright and cheerful all the evening. So much s_hat all the rest seemed to take courage, as if infected somewhat with he_aiety. As a result even I myself felt as if the pall of gloom which weighs u_own were somewhat lifted. We all retired early. Mina is now sleeping like _ittle child. It is wonderful thing that her faculty of sleep remains to he_n the midst of her terrible trouble. Thank God for it, for then at least sh_an forget her care. Perhaps her example may affect me as her gaiety di_onight. I shall try it. Oh! For a dreamless sleep.
6 October, morning.—Another surprise. Mina woke me early, about the same tim_s yesterday, and asked me to bring Dr. Van Helsing. I thought that it wa_nother occassion for hypnotism, and without question went for the Professor.
He had evidently expected some such call, for I found him dressed in his room.
His door was ajar, so that he could hear the opening of the door of our room.
He came at once. As he passed into the room, he asked Mina if the others migh_ome, too.
"No," she said quite simply, "it will not be necessary. You can tell them jus_s well. I must go with you on your journey."
Dr. Van Helsing was as startled as I was. After a moment's pause he asked,
"You must take me with you. I am safer with you, and you shall be safer, too."
"But why, dear Madam Mina? You know that your safety is our solemnest duty. W_o into danger, to which you are, or may be, more liable than any of us from … from circumstances … things that have been." He paused embarrassed.
As she replied, she raised her finger and pointed to her forehead. "I know.
That is why I must go. I can tell you now, whilst the sun is coming up. I ma_ot be able again. I know that when the Count wills me I must go. I know tha_f he tells me to come in secret, I must by wile. By any device to hoodwink, even Jonathan." God saw the look that she turned on me as she spoke, and i_here be indeed a Recording Angel that look is noted to her ever-lastin_onor. I could only clasp her hand. I could not speak. My emotion was to_reat for even the relief of tears.
She went on. "You men are brave and strong. You are strong in your numbers, for you can defy that which would break down the human endurance of one wh_ad to guard alone. Besides, I may be of service, since you can hypnotize m_nd so learn that which even I myself do not know."
Dr. Van Helsing said gravely, "Madam Mina, you are, as always, most wise. Yo_hall with us come. And together we shall do that which we go forth t_chieve."
When he had spoken, Mina's long spell of silence made me look at her. She ha_allen back on her pillow asleep. She did not even wake when I had pulled u_he blind and let in the sunlight which flooded the room. Van Helsing motione_o me to come with him quietly. We went to his room, and within a minute Lor_odalming, Dr. Seward, and Mr. Morris were with us also.
He told them what Mina had said, and went on. "In the morning we shall leav_or Varna. We have now to deal with a new factor, Madam Mina. Oh, but her sou_s true. It is to her an agony to tell us so much as she has done. But it i_ost right, and we are warned in time. There must be no chance lost, and i_arna we must be ready to act the instant when that ship arrives."
"What shall we do exactly?" asked Mr. Morris laconically.
The Professor paused before replying, "We shall at the first board that ship.
Then, when we have identified the box, we shall place a branch of the wil_ose on it. This we shall fasten, for when it is there none can emerge, s_hat at least says the superstition. And to superstition must we trust at th_irst. It was man's faith in the early, and it have its root in faith still.
Then, when we get the opportunity that we seek, when none are near to see, w_hall open the box, and … and all will be well."
"I shall not wait for any opportunity," said Morris. "When I see the box _hall open it and destroy the monster, though there were a thousand me_ooking on, and if I am to be wiped out for it the next moment!" I grasped hi_and instinctively and found it as firm as a piece of steel. I think h_nderstood my look. I hope he did.
"Good boy," said Dr. Van Helsing. "Brave boy. Quincey is all man. God bles_im for it. My child, believe me none of us shall lag behind or pause from an_ear. I do but say what we may do … what we must do. But, indeed, indeed w_annot say what we may do. There are so many things which may happen, an_heir ways and their ends are so various that until the moment we may not say.
We shall all be armed, in all ways. And when the time for the end has come, our effort shall not be lack. Now let us today put all our affairs in order.
Let all things which touch on others dear to us, and who on us depend, b_omplete. For none of us can tell what, or when, or how, the end may be. A_or me, my own affairs are regulate, and as I have nothing else to do, I shal_o make arrangements for the travel. I shall have all tickets and so forth fo_ur journey."
There was nothing further to be said, and we parted. I shall now settle up al_y affairs of earth, and be ready for whatever may come.
Later.—It is done. My will is made, and all complete. Mina if she survive i_y sole heir. If it should not be so, then the others who have been so good t_s shall have remainder.
It is now drawing towards the sunset. Mina's uneasiness calls my attention t_t. I am sure that there is something on her mind which the time of exac_unset will reveal. These occasions are becoming harrowing times for us all.
For each sunrise and sunset opens up some new danger, some new pain, whic_owever, may in God's will be means to a good end. I write all these things i_he diary since my darling must not hear them now. But if it may be that sh_an see them again, they shall be ready. She is calling to me.