Chapter 16 Illicit Affair

• Nikita put her hand on my back and gave it a gentle, caressing massage. She continued to tenderly rub my back with her palm. I gently wiped the tears from my eyes. I will do all in my power to avoid breaking down in front of her and revealing how fragile I am. But I was unable to contain my emotions any longer and had to express myself. I am really self-conscious about the way my appearance looks. It's possible that she thinks that I weep a lot because of my situation now. I can't stop the gust of my emotions. Right now, I have a lot of frustration directed against my mother. And I can’t hide it anymore from Nikita’s curious eyes.
• "When I questioned her about why she had done it, she stated that she did it because he is her first love. The reason for me is just too simplistic, wouldn't you agree?" I turned to her in the hopes of gaining her sympathy and said that it might not be such a bad thing that I felt awful because of my mother's stupid logic. I believe that because Mom wants everyone on the island to talk about her, she did it without giving any second thought to whether or not it was ethical. In addition to this, she is no longer ashamed of what the opinions and comments of other people may be. "Despite my best efforts, I am still not capable of fully understanding the situation. Even if it's her first love, she doesn't show any respect for my dad, who is also her husband. It's not there anymore. It’s gone, just like that."
• My eyes filled up with tears until all my emotions escaped and showed on my face. I don't care what I look like now. My frustration became impossible to conceal any longer, as I was about to explode.