- I stormed out of the cave alone and went back to the small room I shared with my friend. I was so angry. My fists were bloody from hitting the wall when I finally stopped that. Instead I sat on the bed and looked at Jonathan's picture. For the first time in a very long time I allowed the anger and frustration out. Time had no meaning as I railed against the unfairness of it all.
- I was as good as dead to my Earth family and I'd never see them again. My daughters were grown and gone. I was unable to raise my precious boy. The men I thought I had loved, I'd been tricked into caring for. Nothing seemed real anymore. On this world and in this life I had absolutely nothing.
- It became a cycle. I'd sob for a while watching Jonathan's picture and then scream into my pillow until I was hoarse. Rose appeared at some point, but I ignored her until she left. I just continued with my raving until I was too weak to do anything save stare at my young son's face.