Chapter 6 Even God forbids debtors

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• Jacqueline's POV
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• I shuddered greatly when I saw Allan sitting comfortable on my bed with Nick's damaged mobile on his palm. He looked up from it and his gaze rested on me. He always has a way of igniting my timid and frightful self. I regained my balance and took two step toward him.
• "How did you get this?" He asked and I gulped, feeling my fragile self giving way to his authoritative voice.
• "That's--
• "Or should I ask whose pants you took off to get this" he cut me off and I tried to control my breathing. I opened my mouth to say something but his hysterical chuckle beat me to it. "How many were they? Five.. Ten? Young or old? Or is it both?" He said then chuckled again before rising up, the phone still in his palm "They must be super rich to be able to get you this" he said.
• "I-I didn't buy that Allan," I said, his presence making me talk slowly.. "It's not mine" I added. He chuckled before switching his expression to a serious one.
• "You think I'm stupid?!" He yelled and I shuddered, taking a step backwards to prevent whatever I thought would come next.
• "Just because it's broken and damaged doesn't mean I won't know it's new. Look, the tag's still on it and that means it was gotten recently, probably a day or two days back. Do you think you can lie to me"he asked and I gulped
• "Answer me!"
• "No, no I.. I mean I'm not lying. It's really not mine" I said, feeling the lump surging at my throat and breaking my words.
• Allan chuckled then kept quiet for a while. "I should've known you've been up to some dirty games. That explains all the late nights that you claimed you've been working"
• "No Allan I---
• "Don't even try to lie at my face!" He seethed and I felt the tears burning my eyes.
• Allan threw the phone to the bed and walked to me.. I glued myself to the spot, refusing to look at him nor at any where else.. His touch on my bare shoulder gave me a slight roughy jerk and I gulped. His palm slid from my shoulder, where the burns which were already turning to scar were, to the other side of my chest. My body stiffened as his gestures discomforted me. I felt palm loosening my towel and I held it to stop him then shook my head negatively.
• He looked at me eyeball to eyeball then smirked at me in anger.
• "Trying to be feisty, huh?. Well I already am.. Let's go on with it"
• "No!" I pulled back.. My breathing pacing up. His brows furrowed and I could sense his anger getting even more dangerous, he chuckled.
• "You give it to strangers but not to your brother? That's unfair" he said teasingly and I sniffed.
• "Let's get on gently with this, Jackie.. You've turned me on and there's nothing we can do except you turn me down" he said, taking step to me but I shifted.
• "Please don't" I sobbed.
• "You won't like it rash.. Come here"
• "No, please no. Mom won't want this?" He chuckled.
• "Mom has always been a nerd. And this wouldn't be happening if she had been here" he said, darkness circling the corner of his eyes. I just made him more pissed "And that would have happened if you hadn't killed her! If you hadn't been so demanding and babyish!" He raged and I shrieked before shutting my eyes and letting the tears fall out.
• He got to me and I started retreating backwards, he grabbed my wrist, and with the striking pains that followed.. I let his drag my towel off forcefully.. Using my free hand to frantically cover my naked breast, he yanked it off and smirked.. I sobbed shamefully as his flirty gaze surveyed me.
• "That's it" he smirked and before I could blink he pushed me to the bed and covered me with his body.
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• "No! Please Allan.. Don't do this"
• My helpless cries rang in my ears and my heart thumped loudly.. I felt the dewy breeze on my skin and my eyes flung open, I tilt my head to the window and sighed when I saw the morning..
• A wry sigh passed my lips. Ordinarily I get over elated when the morning arrives because I always had the belief that they came with the little bright side of life and shine on me and those little sparkles drives me out of my bad reverie but now I feel completely hopeless.
• I didn't the usual excitement or smile happily, I felt a darkness clouding the little brinks of light I had, over shadowing me and leaving me in my helplessness, my habitat; I wanted to dive into it and hide myself from the world. To shield my present fate in it and cover me inferiority from the world. I felt the pains tearing through my internal body from last night's torture and surging to my external organs. I stood up from where I was seated, all through the night until this morning; doing what I could to shed out my pains but they aggravated. The tears did nothing other than waving my helplessness at my face, over clouding my little hope.
• I stared out of the window and from the glass I could see my reflection.. My face looks mushy, dried tears making a strike from my eyes down to my cheeks, on my nose tip and then my chin. My eyes were baggy, caused by lack of sleep and my excess cries. I couldn't sleep a wink last night.. The pains and the memories were enough to drive slumber far away from me. I tucked the hair falling to my face to my ear and stared at my reflection. I looked a mess.
• A teenage girl whose future couldn't be determimed by her nor her will, it rested on the shoulder of my griefs. I would always think I've seen all life's tortures, as a young girl I would think I could get used to it, Forever shielding my broken self and living life the way it appeared after my parent left. I imagined I could live with Allan's trouble by bearing it but after yesterday I didn't think I could continue. The little human life I thought I had was gone, it had been forcefully taken by my own family and right before my eyes I watched it go helplessly.
• My life's literally getting over, what is left is finally ridding it. I couldn't bear it any longer, I felt ashamed having my body and knowing at the same time that it could be authorized by another. I disgusted myself, I felt like trash and a complete mush.
• I sighed and moistened my dry lips with my tongue before moving myself to the bathroom. My lower insides slippery and releasing pain in response.
• Nicholas POV
• "... Stay away from me! You're not my son you're a monster!" Tears fell rapidly from her eyes as I felt the hatred they passed to me. Those eyes that once held love and care for me now disdained and resented me.
• "No mama, it's me. Please don't send me away. I'm your son, your Nicholas" I cried in response, even in my ugly self I still felt the hurt her rejection was causing.
• "No!!" Her voice raged as she pulled away from me like I was a deadly disease. "You're not my son, you'll never be my son!. I didn't birth a monster! You're a beast!" Those words struck my heart like a sharp spear.
• "Mama?"
• "Shut up, don't you ever call me that. Don't come close to me. If you do I'll tell the world who you are and watch you get taken to your kinds. Your beastly kind! I'm not your mother, stay away from me!!" She said and with her face on mine she started walking out.
• "Mama!? Mama!! "
• "Don't.. Leave!"
• I jerked up from the bed, my forehead sweaty and my body trembling. I sighed when my gaze caught the dim light of the early morning seeping from my bedroom window. I blinked and steadied my rapid breathing.
• The stupid nightmare again! What was I thinking falling asleep. I could never sleep as long as those memories still stay fresh in my head like it happened yesterday. I gulped and saw my hand veins turning green and popping out through my flesh; I shifted to my drawer, pulled it open and dipped In my hand, straining my hand for two syringe I took it out.. Already filled with my medication. I opened it and dug the needle into my wrist, I injected the other to my neck and sighed out my breathing.
• After staying that way to completely return to my former self, I felt the relieve and I sighed again. I checked my alarm clock. 4:00am, it read. I've only had two hours sleep and even though I still felt very sleepy, I dared not go back to sleep cos it won't be enough.
• I dragged myself up and sat upright on my king sized bed. Scanning around, I turned the duvet over and got off bed, slipping my feet into my flops. I walked to my light stand and emptied the half glass of water on it.. I refilled the cup and drank a little from it, dropped it before grabbing a towel and heading to the bathroom.
• I intentionally took time in the bathroom to kill time before walking out, the morning was beginning to get brighter. I walked to my game room where I play video games, watch soccer and kill time at so I couldn't fall asleep with the sounds on. I turned on my computer game, took the game pad and played soccer.. It's how I mostly spend my mornings, just to wait for the day to brighten up when others are asleep.
• I turned it off after feeling the numbness of my fingers and winning my opponent..
• What do you expect? I can't leave without winning.
• Somehow I happen to get stuck thinking about it until I win but that doesn't apply to Jason. I sighed and moved to the kitchen where I made a light breakfast and took it to the dinning, after breakfast I dressed up for school and shoved a double syringe into my backpack. I grabbed my phone and placed a call to Doc. Steve and heard it ring.
• "Nicholas, good morning", he said.
• "Morning.. I'm calling for more medications" I said.
• "Oh.. The last purchase was taken yesterday to India, a--
• "I can't listen to the details Steve and I'm not concerned if it got transferred, I called to tell you I'll be needing more" I insisted.
• "Of course, I'm sorry, I'll get it to your house before evening"
• I ended the call after that.
• I took my bag to my car, threw it to the passenger seat and pushed myself to the driver's. I roared the engine to life and drove off to school.
• On the road, I swerved to another turn before continuing the smooth ride. I honked when I sight a lady in front of my car but a little farther though, I decreased the intensity of my speed.. Giving her enough time to cross but she stayed In the middle of the road, looking ahead and not moving. I cussed and honked again, longer this time but no movement.. Okay is she deaf or something? Even though she is, can't she see she's in the middle of the road and a car is running towards her?
• I honked again, my car still moving and when it got to her I hurriedly stepped on the brakes, my eyes widening in fright when she still didn't move.
• What the f**k!
• I angrily took the seatbelt off and got down from my car before marching up to the lady.
• "Hey! Are you crazy?! Do you have a death wish!" I bellowed and she turned to me. My brows lowered when I recognized her.
• The clumsy bitch that ruined my phone.. I saw the writings on her hand and when I saw her last she wasn't deaf, dumb nor blind.. She couldn't have contact those three in a day. Her gaze was on me and her face was expressionless.
• No sorry feeling nor panicking.
• "It's you again" I muttered in frustration "And I know you're not deaf so why are you not moving from the road" I asked but she just kept staring at me.
• I was beginning to get more pissed. If she's trying to commit suicide then she has to find some other way and not pull it on me. She's just so annoying.
• "Are you trying to get yourself killed you idiot!" I yelled and she nodded, my face twitched.
• "What? You trying to get yourself killed?" I asked unsure and she nodded again.
• "Yes" she responded, her voice coming out soft and not the way I had expected.
• "You're crazy" I said.
• "I want to end my life. What's crazy about that?" She asked and I sighed in frustration.
• "Look if you're trying to play some pranks on me to make me go all pitiful on you then you're kidding cos if I get back in my car and you don't get your bitchy self off the road, I'll run over you!" I warned.
• "Please do, just kill me already! Please do it" she said, yelling at a point, I chuckled in awe.
• Okay I'll have to remember that she's crazy and clumsy at the same time. Such an idiot!
• "Just do it!" She yelled again and I flinched, looking closer I noticed blisters of tears, hanging at the corner of her eyes.
• "I don't care if you want to end your life or get yourself killed but I'm not doing that for you. If you're ready to die then do it yourself or get involved with an killer. I'm not losing my phone and my pride at the same time and to the same person" I said and she sniffed, wiping her tears off but more fell.
• "Look..I don't know the reason for your sudden want to die but if you know the amount of people begging for life in health centers then you'll realize how precious it is. It's your decision though but maybe you should remember paying off your debt to me before dying, it's not a good idea to die in debts.. Even God forbids debtors"
• "What" she said in a rather surprised tone, a frown crossing her face. "How can you?!"
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