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Chapter 7 What i felt

  • “Hey,” Kendra said, jumping on me from the back.
  • “Hey, good morning…” I said.
  • She laughed, as if I was amusing her.
  • “what?” I asked. “What are you laughing at?” I tried to open the door but it didn’t open.
  • “Were you just trying to sneak out of the Alpha’s bedroom, hoping to be unnoticed by anyone, especially me? Oh my god!” she said and returned to her laughing.
  • “Why is the door stuck? It won’t open. Stupid door!”
  • “Its looked. I locked it last night after I found out you would be spending the night with the Alpha in his bedroom.” She said. Emphasizing on the ‘bedroom’
  • “oh, great! You know, that’s wonderful, so can we please open the door now? I don’t want anyone seeing me looking like this?” I said.
  • “Good morning Bella, how was the night?” Caleb greeted smiling like I had never seen him do before.
  • “Good morning.” I returned the greeting, while I ignored the question. I turned to Kendra. “Hmm.. that was weird. Did… did you see the way he smiled? Why is everyone smiling like that?” I asked.
  • Kendra laughed again, making a chuckling shoulders. “We know about last night. Pretty much every one here does. You and the Alpha… oh, I’m so jealous right now! I mean, we know. But only you can really tell me how it felt. I want to here everything.” She said excitedly. Kendra brought out the key from her pocket and opened the door.
  • “What do you mean you know? What is there to know?” I asked. We went inside. Kendra helped me undress as she insisted, and took me down to the Beta’s bathroom to clean up.
  • “You are really not going to tell me anything? I thought I was your best friend? At least, I’m supposed to be.” She said.
  • “nothing happened. I honestly do not know where you got your piece of misinformed information, but no, nothing happened. I am only still trying to get along with Ian until I don’t need his bead anymore. Why would you think, I would want to have sex with somebody I don’t love? The only thing holding me here is the fear of death. My life’s wasting away every single more day I spend here. And don’t say that, you and I are good, but you are not my best friend. I have her outside here, and my god, she must be worried sick” I said.
  • Kendra and the other servant girls who were bathing me, looked at themselves. They were so uncomfortable with my reply. No one said anything. It was awkward for a while. “Look, what I’m trying to say is, nothing happened between me and the Alpha. If it’s the sex you want to hear, it didn’t happen. We just had a little drink and… slept.” That didn’t seem to stop the awkwardness. I sighed. “Just say something… please…”
  • “What would you like me to say?” she asked.
  • “I don’t know. Just anything. So long it’s something.” I said.
  • Kendra sighed heavily. “OK, I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have asked you about your night with the Alpha. I have no right to and it was wrong of me. Also, no one knows you slept in the Alpha’s room. Only me.” She said. That was relieving for real. I didn’t want anyone thinking wrong things. “Also, I know, I mean, you have said you have a best friend before, I’m just trying to be here for you all the time.” She said massaging my hair.
  • “Yeah, I know. Thanks, I really appreciate it.”
  • “,No, it’s OK. It’s my job. My purpose. I love doing it.” She said. I bet she smiled while she said it. She always does. “Listen, you might have a job outside here, a um… a best friend, family, car or any other thing, it’s cool. I mean, it’s how it should be. It is normal. But, what you’ve never had is love. You have never fallen in love with anyone before no matter how much you think you have or believe you have. It’s just not… possible. You have always been the Alpha’s. You can only love him, and you do. You just don’t realize it now. You are in love with the Alpha. You have always been. Always, and will be always.” She said which was a great speech, unlike before. I felt it.
  • I gulped anxiously about the truth in her words.
  • How true were they? I have been in love with Rob all my life, and I still feel it for him even after we broke up. I was still crazy for Rob, and had even masturbated once, craving for his touch again. He was a rough sex guy with a good dick.
  • Kendra held me out of the bathtub. “I don’t know about what you believe, but I don’t think it’s true. I really don’t.” I said.
  • Kendra smiled. “Only you can answer that, and only you can oppose it.” She said. She wore me the towel. “Here, I am your best friend, this is your home, and Mariana would be proud of you. We all are.”
  • Like Kendra said, I had answered the question, but I still stood to oppose the answer I had given. If what I believe opposed my answer, then what is the answer. I smiled at the thought of Ian coming back to the castle and giving me a cold look again. I smelled an imaginary silver rose. The thought of us almost entangling last night got me completely aroused again. I loved his breath and accent, his long hair fallen on his handsome face which I had barely seen smile. But when I thought about the man I said I loved in my answer, all I saw was a good sex, and lies, but good sex. And now, what I felt, was the mystery.
  • “come on, let’s go. Your breakfast is waiting.” Kendra said.
  • One of the servant girls came back in. She handed a gift to me. “The Alpha sent it.”
  • Again, it was a silver rose.
  • To be continued…